Feeling very contemplative this Mother's Day.
My day has truly been a blessed reflection of my most important eternal responsibilities. My husband and kids have made it truly enjoyable.
I still can't help thinking about years past. Like the year that I was so deep in depression that the last thing I wanted to be was a mother. I was doing a terrible job of it at the time, and I knew it. Or perhaps last year, waking up to cramping and bleeding, knowing that I was losing, yet, ANOTHER pregnancy.
My heart is heavy for all the babies I have never held. It hurts for all my friends and family who have lost dear children, in whatever walk of pregnancy or life it may have been. And it especially hurts for those of you, my dear friend and family, who have never had the opportunity to become a mother. I know this day is not the most joyful for you.
I am so grateful for my testimony in the Plan of Salvation and for the Atonement of my Savior, Jesus Christ.
How blessed I feel to KNOW that my babies are not far away and that I will have the opportunity to raise them one day (perhaps 5 girls) and that the pain of these losses can and are swallowed up by the Atonement. I have felt it's healing balm time and time again.
How grateful I am to have a knowledge that such wonderful women (and men) in my life will be given EVERY OPPORTUNITY to experience "family" and motherhood in the next life if they have not had the opportunity to do so here on earth.
I'm so grateful I am to be a member of Christ's church (The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints) and to have been raised with this sure knowledge, that ALL things will be made right in the end.
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